Nge

What if I did do it?


About a month and a half ago, they asked and I said no. It was an instant decision I made; I had to say no to an experience that had the possibility of changing everything, like me being able to ride the train everyday with no apprehension.


Two weeks later, they called again and I asked for a few days to decide. Talked to my family, thought about it a hundred times. 50% crazy, 50% brave, I said yes. The next few days were a whirlwind; we shot the photos for the opening billboard, we shot at school, me in front of the Oblation, me playing Rug, me rolling on the Sunken grass, me eating isaw, tapsilog at Rodics, etc. These were all being done to build up my nametag in the show as “Cool na Iskolar ng Bayan,” which is really funny and sad at the same time. 'Di ba? Hahaha.


Then a week later, I backed out. Maybe it's just 'cause I'm afraid of the whole invasion of privacy shat, or the fact that nobody goes through unscathed on the show.


Then the night before the show began, that was last Saturday, the guy who replaced me backed out due to a family emergency. They called again and I asked for an hour to decide. First I asked friends what they thought I should do, then I talked to family members if they were fine with it. In the end, the friends said yes, the family said no. I had to follow my family.


Fortunately, they were able to find a guy to replace me that midnight, and they were able to shoot all the necessary clips just in time for the opening. All these thanks to the amazing efforts of two cameramen who I truly admire.


I was only able to catch the last half of yesterday's pilot, and in a way I do feel na parang sayang, I should've done it, nothing to lose.


My aim in joining the show is for my family to be proud of me. And I wanted older people to see that we kiddos aren't as screwed up as they think we are. But I guess making that decision of declining made my fam extremely happy, knowing that in the end, I'll stay with what they think is good for me.


No regrets.

This of course means that I still have summer school! Nge!

Rundown

1.

Just came from a three-day retreat with other guys who go to Kaps, and to the Centers of UP-M, Ateneo, DLSU, UA&P, CSB, and UST. Samar rocks, it reminded us all of Hogwarts, with the dorms, hallways, stairs. Really nice these past three days. And got two really good books at Samar, which I can definitely use.

2.

Looked at some places at Katip a while ago after dinner with Carlo, eyeing on one unit which’s near perfect. Awesome services and amenities, they even have a shuttle that will take to you school. Nakakahiya, haha. Will wait for the parentals’ word on Monday.

3.

Summer class starts on Monday. !! First class at 7AM, haha. That should teach me real discipline.

4.

May Friendster na ako. ! Hahaha.

5.

There were so many things on my mind these past few weeks, but now I’m real happy that I’m just focused on one thing.

6.

I’ve never felt this happy in the longest time. I was telling Juanchi while going home a while ago how much the Center has changed the way I am. I know it sounds real sentimental, I’m real thankful that on the day I was supposed to tell the guys I was gonna stop going to the Center, it rained real hard and I wasn’t able to go. The next day, was able to clear my mind.


7.

Started teaching Rugby to little kids last Sunday in the South area. Glad to say there were only two casualties that afternoon, which is a real achievement. Ultra-rowdy yet incredibly funny boys. If you got younger bros 8-12 yrs old, hit me up, it’s all free! Carlos invented our motto which is, “All you need is a tough ... heart.” Haha. We’re thinkin of creating a new camp for North kiddos, which will probably be held at Sunken Garden. We have six kids na from Northfield. NORTHfield. How apt. Ang corny.


8.

Getting my military uniform tomorrow. Yowza! At last.